Does time stand still with a baby or fly by?

My poor neglected blog.

I started this blog with the intention of distracting myself from the challenges of a baby that doesn't sleep. When I started it I was doing so much walking (in a desperate bid to get my little girl Amelie to sleep) that I had a lot of time to think. It was therapeutic to come home and assemble all those thoughts into a blog.

So where has the time gone?

I feel like I've been living ground hog day over and over. The past four (or is it five months?) have involved painful sleepless nights involving anything from getting up three times a night to more than ten! I stop counting at ten for my own sanity.

On reflection tonight I simply cannot believe I've been doing this for so long.

I'd like to know when it starts to get better? Helpful friends have gently suggested everything will improve once Amelie reaches one year of age and realistic friends have shared their stories of sleepless nights that went on until their littlies were three or four. Urgh!

So what does one do when they are so ridiculously sleep deprived and developing a twitch, such is the obsession of getting their baby to sleep?

Well they return to work don't they. Yup I've returned to work two days a week. I must say it has saved my sanity. As much as it is hard to leave Amelie, especially since she has been a fixture by my side for 10 months, the time apart has done wonders to rejuvenate me.

I've actually found myself approaching much needed naps with a more relaxed attitude. Is it a coincidence that Amelie has actually been going down for her naps with far less fuss? Maybe, maybe not.

Everyday really is a changing proposition.

All I know is I cannot believe my little girl is 10 months old. Soon I'll be planning her first birthday. One can only hope I'll be well rested but if I'm not I'm quickly learning that times flies by so fast that there is actually something really beautiful about 1am, 2am, 3am etc cuddles that won't happen forever.